So It's almost that time of year again when all the plants start blooming and everything starts warming up (Well maybe not in Feburary) but then in the middle of next month what is it?
Bloody
Fucking
Valentines
Just so all the people out there haven't realised it's the one day of the year when the people who haven't got anyone to share that day on are riddiculed for not having someone.
It's ridiculous. A Saints day has turned into some sort of commercial holiday just like everything else, and it's when men and women all over the world (Well in those countries that celebrate Valentines) spend God knows how much money on cheap gimmicks that their 'Sweetheart' will probably dislike and put to one side anyway!!!
Maybe I wouldn't be so cynical if i had a signifcant other. But as it is, I don't and will be spendning another Valentines day at home, alone, with a huge bar of chocolate, some ice cream and lots of movies, not to mention and hell crap load of homework for AS. So those are my valentines plans.
Although for those of you who know, and you know who you are, there might (Although probably not be) a surprise. I Dare Not even hope. I'll keep you posted.
Now here's the part where I start blaming Men for the whole concept but on this side of things I think that Women are as much to blame as men, due to the fact that sterotypically we're meant to be the soppy ones.
And anyway, no one's going to read this and no one cares what one person thinks in the midst of all the lovey dovey merriment that engulfs the majority of the world when Febuary 14th dawns.
There will be no sane people left because all the singles will be doing nothing and all the couples out doing whatever they want, and it's the one night a year a guy cannot be ridiculed for being romantic. (Though that might be an understatement- whatever day of the year it is, men always get the piss taken out of them)
I will be hiding under my duvet if anyone wants me
Stef
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
Mentoring
So in the end it was a bad idea.
I went into the room where they were doing the interviews sat down, and no one know what the fuck was going on.
So I said no.
I'd obviously trod on some toes so I said bugger it. I know I'd be good at it, but i won't do it because you've mucked me- and the others about- so very much that I don't think I can do it.
I mean, what the head of sixth form had in mind for me, was being in charge of mentors, yes but of the year ten mentors who had been specially trained, by one of our Deputy Heads (Well I'm not meant to say that anymore- it's Vice Principle! DON'T ASK!)
And that wasn't something I wanted to do. I mean I'm sure that the Year 10's are nice and everything but I don't think they'd like having to report (Which Is what they'd be doing ) back to someone who's two years older than them.
In my mind it just wouldn't work.
So i said my piece and it was all very well, them saying that I could manage such a job, but with the Library taking up so much of my time, I really couldn't see how it would work.
And i don't feel that I am really appreciated by people outside of the library, and then I get told that it isn't true, but i know it is really.
So anyway, made the point that I'm probably doing more community Service than the others will do in a year. And that seemed to clinch the deal really.
I mean I'd put myself out there for deputy head girl, and then someone who didn't even run for it, got it because they allowed her to run for it. It's like a consolation prize. And I get told, you should go for community captain. And then The Mentoring thing. I was like Fine, I'll do it.
Then I upset everybody on the head team, pissed everybody off, and decided to end it there and then, because there was no point in me wasting what would have been a good talent, and putting something on thee back burner just because of something that would have taken up a very large percentage of my time, and I would have not have had a defined role for.
For once in my life I needed to say no, and be just the tiny bit selfish, because I've been spreading myself so thin, and That school has given nothing back to me, since the day I arrived. Apart from an education.
The thing is that they're still trying to talk me into it, they want to see how a Christmas break has effected my feelings towards this. Well nothing will change. I've put too much out there to have it thrown away again, and this time, this time, I want to be just a little bit selfish, to save myself from myself.
To save myself a little dignity.
The people in that school judge on looks only, which makes me, pretty much at the bottom of the food chain. they don't care whether I'd be good at the job, all they care about is who their friends are and who will give them the best deal.
And it's all very well for the Head of KS5 to say that if she had a choice then i would be on that head team, but I'm not am I? thanks to my peers, I'm on the outside, where they believe that I belong.
So I can't say that I haven't done it, but I have, and I'm quite happy with my decesion thanks very much.
I'll stay where I am in the Library, but Politics is not my forte.
Here it is then, the first rant of 2008, which really should have been written down in 2007, but there you go.
I forgot, plain as.
Stef
I went into the room where they were doing the interviews sat down, and no one know what the fuck was going on.
So I said no.
I'd obviously trod on some toes so I said bugger it. I know I'd be good at it, but i won't do it because you've mucked me- and the others about- so very much that I don't think I can do it.
I mean, what the head of sixth form had in mind for me, was being in charge of mentors, yes but of the year ten mentors who had been specially trained, by one of our Deputy Heads (Well I'm not meant to say that anymore- it's Vice Principle! DON'T ASK!)
And that wasn't something I wanted to do. I mean I'm sure that the Year 10's are nice and everything but I don't think they'd like having to report (Which Is what they'd be doing ) back to someone who's two years older than them.
In my mind it just wouldn't work.
So i said my piece and it was all very well, them saying that I could manage such a job, but with the Library taking up so much of my time, I really couldn't see how it would work.
And i don't feel that I am really appreciated by people outside of the library, and then I get told that it isn't true, but i know it is really.
So anyway, made the point that I'm probably doing more community Service than the others will do in a year. And that seemed to clinch the deal really.
I mean I'd put myself out there for deputy head girl, and then someone who didn't even run for it, got it because they allowed her to run for it. It's like a consolation prize. And I get told, you should go for community captain. And then The Mentoring thing. I was like Fine, I'll do it.
Then I upset everybody on the head team, pissed everybody off, and decided to end it there and then, because there was no point in me wasting what would have been a good talent, and putting something on thee back burner just because of something that would have taken up a very large percentage of my time, and I would have not have had a defined role for.
For once in my life I needed to say no, and be just the tiny bit selfish, because I've been spreading myself so thin, and That school has given nothing back to me, since the day I arrived. Apart from an education.
The thing is that they're still trying to talk me into it, they want to see how a Christmas break has effected my feelings towards this. Well nothing will change. I've put too much out there to have it thrown away again, and this time, this time, I want to be just a little bit selfish, to save myself from myself.
To save myself a little dignity.
The people in that school judge on looks only, which makes me, pretty much at the bottom of the food chain. they don't care whether I'd be good at the job, all they care about is who their friends are and who will give them the best deal.
And it's all very well for the Head of KS5 to say that if she had a choice then i would be on that head team, but I'm not am I? thanks to my peers, I'm on the outside, where they believe that I belong.
So I can't say that I haven't done it, but I have, and I'm quite happy with my decesion thanks very much.
I'll stay where I am in the Library, but Politics is not my forte.
Here it is then, the first rant of 2008, which really should have been written down in 2007, but there you go.
I forgot, plain as.
Stef
Friday, 7 December 2007
Right, Ok
Ok so I said to the Teacher who's head of Sixth Form in my schoolt that I would got for Community captain, because all the teachers who obivously didn't think that I was good enough for the Job as Deputy Head Girl thought I'd be brilliant as a Community Captain.
Ok, ok, I crumbled, but I still get be on the head team, I just don't get to make any important descitions and start up out Mentoring system for the greenies (thats what we call the younger years who wear the grean uniform). Now That I believe that I would have been good at.
The Girl who got deputy, now I'm not saying that she's not a nice girl, but she has her own adgenda which I don't think includes the mentoring system, which is really a major part of our school plus it has a training scheme which would look good on Appilcation forms for Jobs and Uni, so why don't they want that back on it's feet, plus it would probably count as Community service as well, for all the sixth formers who are giving up their time to help the little ones.
I was thinking of asking if I could revive it anyway. I think I could really do a good job and my sociology teacher believes I would as well. Thats got to be something good right?- if a teacher believes that you can do something like that?
So Yeah, that. Tiring week, and I've got my works Christmas party to go to in a bit, nothing much, just chinese food.
Stef
Ok, ok, I crumbled, but I still get be on the head team, I just don't get to make any important descitions and start up out Mentoring system for the greenies (thats what we call the younger years who wear the grean uniform). Now That I believe that I would have been good at.
The Girl who got deputy, now I'm not saying that she's not a nice girl, but she has her own adgenda which I don't think includes the mentoring system, which is really a major part of our school plus it has a training scheme which would look good on Appilcation forms for Jobs and Uni, so why don't they want that back on it's feet, plus it would probably count as Community service as well, for all the sixth formers who are giving up their time to help the little ones.
I was thinking of asking if I could revive it anyway. I think I could really do a good job and my sociology teacher believes I would as well. Thats got to be something good right?- if a teacher believes that you can do something like that?
So Yeah, that. Tiring week, and I've got my works Christmas party to go to in a bit, nothing much, just chinese food.
Stef
Monday, 3 December 2007
Deputy Head Girl- Not!
Decsions made, and votes counted, and Waingels Deputy Head Girl For 2007/2008 and it is.....(Drum Roll Please)
Not me.
Another girl got it. She's more popular and probably came second in the Running for Head Girl, (She ran for both) which I think makes it stupid for her to run as Deputy, but there you go. I'm not it end of.
And Now they want me to run for Community Captain, meaning I'll still have a place on the head team, just not Deputy Head Girl. Which sucks, because more people want to be Community Captains, than did who wanted to be Head Girl. Everyone thinks this would be a better thing for me, but I'm not so sure. I don't want to have to run around everyone else and clear up other peoples mistakes. As Deputy I would have had a lot more say in the matter, and this way, I'll just be setting myself up for more disappointment. Because lets face it, none one's going to vote for me.
So now, all the teachers think I should go for this community captain thing,and I don't want to, because I'll be setting myself up for more disappointment.:[
I know it's probably a daft thing to have done in the first place, but I thought that I might have had enough respect from my peers to have won their vote and have shown them what a good job I could have done. But no, we want the very so bright ever so popular clever clogs. I know, she's a nice person really, but i don't think that they should have been allowed to run, it just sucppered everyone else's chances.
Life geuninally sucks. And the saddest part of it is, that sometimes, it's no one's fault but your own, and thats the worst part.
For a few minutes I was actaully beginning to believe that I would get in and I would be able to change things, and help things to improve for a way that allowed me to be remembered as someone who made a difference in the School and in Sixth Form. Not the strange little geeky girl who helped out in the library a lot.
So here I am, no power, nothing to my name, nada, nothing, not even a smidge. A hopless wreck of something no one wanted to know about.
Stef
Not me.
Another girl got it. She's more popular and probably came second in the Running for Head Girl, (She ran for both) which I think makes it stupid for her to run as Deputy, but there you go. I'm not it end of.
And Now they want me to run for Community Captain, meaning I'll still have a place on the head team, just not Deputy Head Girl. Which sucks, because more people want to be Community Captains, than did who wanted to be Head Girl. Everyone thinks this would be a better thing for me, but I'm not so sure. I don't want to have to run around everyone else and clear up other peoples mistakes. As Deputy I would have had a lot more say in the matter, and this way, I'll just be setting myself up for more disappointment. Because lets face it, none one's going to vote for me.
So now, all the teachers think I should go for this community captain thing,and I don't want to, because I'll be setting myself up for more disappointment.:[
I know it's probably a daft thing to have done in the first place, but I thought that I might have had enough respect from my peers to have won their vote and have shown them what a good job I could have done. But no, we want the very so bright ever so popular clever clogs. I know, she's a nice person really, but i don't think that they should have been allowed to run, it just sucppered everyone else's chances.
Life geuninally sucks. And the saddest part of it is, that sometimes, it's no one's fault but your own, and thats the worst part.
For a few minutes I was actaully beginning to believe that I would get in and I would be able to change things, and help things to improve for a way that allowed me to be remembered as someone who made a difference in the School and in Sixth Form. Not the strange little geeky girl who helped out in the library a lot.
So here I am, no power, nothing to my name, nada, nothing, not even a smidge. A hopless wreck of something no one wanted to know about.
Stef
Thursday, 29 November 2007
Hustings/ Head Team elections
Right so this whole week has been election week for the new head team and in a moment of what is now apparent madness, I put my name down to run as Deputy Head Girl, which is quite a big deal.
Ok so the week started badly, by someone pointing out that I was using the Library as a Campagin base, which got me in a really bad mood. Then the whole stress of the thing which meant that I was running around like a mad thing thinking that I could make a difference to the one sided vote.
Anyway, it was hustings tonight, where all the propective candidates make their speeches on why they would be a good person to have on the head team etc, and so I've been really nervous all day and then after school it came down to the speeches.
The Boys went first. It was hard to decide who I would give my vote too, but in the end, i think it went to who I think is the right person.
Anyway, it was getting nearer the time for me to make my speech. So I was counting down the perspective head girls, and then, everything was alright, the girls were getting laughs and i was thinking "ohhhhh crap" and then it was my turn.
I was shaking like hell, honestly I was, and I began. No laughs, no claps, just silence, I was going as red as a tomato. I kept on going, i had to. I was the shittest thing there and I and everyone else apart from my friends (Who denied it) knew it.
I sat down, shaking like hell, feeling sooo sick. The other gril who's going for Deputy got up, and to huge roars and cheers, and laughes and claps started her speech. That was when I knew I had deffently lost...
Voting for Deputy's is on monday, but I'm not holding my breathe. It won't be me. trust me. I'm not holding out much confidence...
Stef OUt
Ok so the week started badly, by someone pointing out that I was using the Library as a Campagin base, which got me in a really bad mood. Then the whole stress of the thing which meant that I was running around like a mad thing thinking that I could make a difference to the one sided vote.
Anyway, it was hustings tonight, where all the propective candidates make their speeches on why they would be a good person to have on the head team etc, and so I've been really nervous all day and then after school it came down to the speeches.
The Boys went first. It was hard to decide who I would give my vote too, but in the end, i think it went to who I think is the right person.
Anyway, it was getting nearer the time for me to make my speech. So I was counting down the perspective head girls, and then, everything was alright, the girls were getting laughs and i was thinking "ohhhhh crap" and then it was my turn.
I was shaking like hell, honestly I was, and I began. No laughs, no claps, just silence, I was going as red as a tomato. I kept on going, i had to. I was the shittest thing there and I and everyone else apart from my friends (Who denied it) knew it.
I sat down, shaking like hell, feeling sooo sick. The other gril who's going for Deputy got up, and to huge roars and cheers, and laughes and claps started her speech. That was when I knew I had deffently lost...
Voting for Deputy's is on monday, but I'm not holding my breathe. It won't be me. trust me. I'm not holding out much confidence...
Stef OUt
Friday, 2 November 2007
New Famous Five
The Famous Five
The Famous Five. The new TV series looks horrible. It really does, doesn't even sound like the FF.
I understand that it has to be updated, PC and all that, but why not keep the orginal adventures and names, in the very least. Changing the names, and the adventures, seems to take away the very essence of the Famous Five. They wouldn't be the famous five if you didn't have a stroppy George, a joking Dick, a Loyal (If slightly washy) Anne, and a bossy Julian. It's just not the same.And AMERICAN! That's what angered me the most, it is being written by AMERICAN's who had to have the orginal text changed for them in the first place. If you are going to bring back the FF, then please make sure that you use English writers who understand why we don't want one of best selling and well known books changed to such lengths.
Ok, ok, it wouldn't be very PC if they were all white, I get that, but what can you do? You can't really dig up old Enid, and get her to re-write them.
Leaving them the way they are allows people, kids mainly, to see the way that things changed from one time to the next. Next they'll be changing the history to make it more PC.
First books, then fact.
It just doesn't work like that.
Lord help us.
Peace out
Stef
PS:
If any of the above offends you, i'm sorry. I didn't meant offend. So I beg your parden. I just wanted to make people aware of what was going on, and my feelings towards it.
The Famous Five. The new TV series looks horrible. It really does, doesn't even sound like the FF.
I understand that it has to be updated, PC and all that, but why not keep the orginal adventures and names, in the very least. Changing the names, and the adventures, seems to take away the very essence of the Famous Five. They wouldn't be the famous five if you didn't have a stroppy George, a joking Dick, a Loyal (If slightly washy) Anne, and a bossy Julian. It's just not the same.And AMERICAN! That's what angered me the most, it is being written by AMERICAN's who had to have the orginal text changed for them in the first place. If you are going to bring back the FF, then please make sure that you use English writers who understand why we don't want one of best selling and well known books changed to such lengths.
Ok, ok, it wouldn't be very PC if they were all white, I get that, but what can you do? You can't really dig up old Enid, and get her to re-write them.
Leaving them the way they are allows people, kids mainly, to see the way that things changed from one time to the next. Next they'll be changing the history to make it more PC.
First books, then fact.
It just doesn't work like that.
Lord help us.
Peace out
Stef
PS:
If any of the above offends you, i'm sorry. I didn't meant offend. So I beg your parden. I just wanted to make people aware of what was going on, and my feelings towards it.
Monday, 22 October 2007
Stuff
Well, it's half term. Normally I would say yay.
well, i suppose i can, but i have a lot of homework and i have just found out that my house is going to look like a construction site soon, because my mum's room is having the floor boards re done, so everything has to come out of her room, and some where in the house.
Which means no internet for three weeks, unless Dad can wire up my computer to the phone line, so I can have internet in my room
I just hope he gets round to it.
Anyway, had a good couple of days. Talked to the guy I sat next to in Assembly the other week, had some lie ins, and talking to my friend in Bangladesh now. lol
Anyway, lots of homework, which I don't want to do. urgh!
Brain is about to explode.
really into indian things at the moment. the music, movies, the food. watched Bride and Prejudice the other day. Really want to sound track now, and the movie.
There's always christmas I suppose
bi for now
stef
well, i suppose i can, but i have a lot of homework and i have just found out that my house is going to look like a construction site soon, because my mum's room is having the floor boards re done, so everything has to come out of her room, and some where in the house.
Which means no internet for three weeks, unless Dad can wire up my computer to the phone line, so I can have internet in my room
I just hope he gets round to it.
Anyway, had a good couple of days. Talked to the guy I sat next to in Assembly the other week, had some lie ins, and talking to my friend in Bangladesh now. lol
Anyway, lots of homework, which I don't want to do. urgh!
Brain is about to explode.
really into indian things at the moment. the music, movies, the food. watched Bride and Prejudice the other day. Really want to sound track now, and the movie.
There's always christmas I suppose
bi for now
stef
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