Friday 7 December 2007

Right, Ok

Ok so I said to the Teacher who's head of Sixth Form in my schoolt that I would got for Community captain, because all the teachers who obivously didn't think that I was good enough for the Job as Deputy Head Girl thought I'd be brilliant as a Community Captain.

Ok, ok, I crumbled, but I still get be on the head team, I just don't get to make any important descitions and start up out Mentoring system for the greenies (thats what we call the younger years who wear the grean uniform). Now That I believe that I would have been good at.

The Girl who got deputy, now I'm not saying that she's not a nice girl, but she has her own adgenda which I don't think includes the mentoring system, which is really a major part of our school plus it has a training scheme which would look good on Appilcation forms for Jobs and Uni, so why don't they want that back on it's feet, plus it would probably count as Community service as well, for all the sixth formers who are giving up their time to help the little ones.

I was thinking of asking if I could revive it anyway. I think I could really do a good job and my sociology teacher believes I would as well. Thats got to be something good right?- if a teacher believes that you can do something like that?

So Yeah, that. Tiring week, and I've got my works Christmas party to go to in a bit, nothing much, just chinese food.

Stef

Monday 3 December 2007

Deputy Head Girl- Not!

Decsions made, and votes counted, and Waingels Deputy Head Girl For 2007/2008 and it is.....(Drum Roll Please)

Not me.

Another girl got it. She's more popular and probably came second in the Running for Head Girl, (She ran for both) which I think makes it stupid for her to run as Deputy, but there you go. I'm not it end of.

And Now they want me to run for Community Captain, meaning I'll still have a place on the head team, just not Deputy Head Girl. Which sucks, because more people want to be Community Captains, than did who wanted to be Head Girl. Everyone thinks this would be a better thing for me, but I'm not so sure. I don't want to have to run around everyone else and clear up other peoples mistakes. As Deputy I would have had a lot more say in the matter, and this way, I'll just be setting myself up for more disappointment. Because lets face it, none one's going to vote for me.

So now, all the teachers think I should go for this community captain thing,and I don't want to, because I'll be setting myself up for more disappointment.:[

I know it's probably a daft thing to have done in the first place, but I thought that I might have had enough respect from my peers to have won their vote and have shown them what a good job I could have done. But no, we want the very so bright ever so popular clever clogs. I know, she's a nice person really, but i don't think that they should have been allowed to run, it just sucppered everyone else's chances.

Life geuninally sucks. And the saddest part of it is, that sometimes, it's no one's fault but your own, and thats the worst part.
For a few minutes I was actaully beginning to believe that I would get in and I would be able to change things, and help things to improve for a way that allowed me to be remembered as someone who made a difference in the School and in Sixth Form. Not the strange little geeky girl who helped out in the library a lot.

So here I am, no power, nothing to my name, nada, nothing, not even a smidge. A hopless wreck of something no one wanted to know about.

Stef